Fool's gold.

Do you ever almost feel like an absolute fool? To just know damn well how incredibly naive part of your mind is being. It's not the best feeling. The moment of the impending realization. That all the things you swore wouldn't happen, are happening. The self disappointment in knowing you lost control and gave in. But now you realize so you can stop it in its tracks. Now you have no excuse. Can't completely blame you. Sometimes you see what you want to see. Feel what you subconsciously want to feel. But is it real? How foolish to think things could possibly work out alright for once. Reasons for happiness are all but permanent. You of all people should know that. But by all means, cherish the now. Just please don't let yourself down anymore.